The first run-through is fine. The keyboardist is good, and Suguru secretly likes what she brings. She doesn't go over to talk to her with Satoru; instead, she talks to her band about it, making a few adjustments here and there in the music. They should be talking about it as a group, rather than so siloed like this, but Suguru is still wary around Satoru's people—
Though wary is the wrong word. Not that she would admit it, but jealousy burns in her as she watches them talk, the energy between them. Suguru has that with her band members, and she knows, logically, that's what Satoru looks for in musicians (she's mentioned it in interviews that Suguru watches late at night, after drinking, and her defences are down). So it shouldn't be a problem. But they have an easy camaraderie that Suguru and Satoru once had, and now there's just animosity and troubled waters. Suguru wasn't wrong with what she said about being the best Satoru's ever shared the stage with, but it doesn't feel like it's anything special now.
But she can't think about any of that now. She has to keep cool and composed, especially for opening night, and Suguru refuses to let Satoru get to her. She's spent a decade rebuilding everything she lost, and it won't slip out of her hands at the height of her fame just because Satoru wants to prove something.
So she throws herself into the song when Satoru rejoins her, bringing out more emotion than she intends. But it works for the music. Something proud and cruel in Suguru delights when she realizes that Satoru is mostly following her lead on the emotional aspect. She's never been jealous of Satoru's talent, because Satoru's always been as bright as the sun, as all encompassing as the heat of a summer day. It was stupid to be jealous of that, especially when Suguru was wrapped up in her, had her attention and knew the troubles behind that talent. Still, knowing there is something Satoru isn't quite unparalleled at and that Suguru succeeds in feels like an accomplishment.
"Later on...." Suguru flips her set list. "After Infinity. It's the brightest song, we need something to bring everyone back before I transition into Dreamer." She makes a little frown, thinking about that. "Maybe not. They're a little too close in theme to be distinct, and I want this song to stand out."
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Though wary is the wrong word. Not that she would admit it, but jealousy burns in her as she watches them talk, the energy between them. Suguru has that with her band members, and she knows, logically, that's what Satoru looks for in musicians (she's mentioned it in interviews that Suguru watches late at night, after drinking, and her defences are down). So it shouldn't be a problem. But they have an easy camaraderie that Suguru and Satoru once had, and now there's just animosity and troubled waters. Suguru wasn't wrong with what she said about being the best Satoru's ever shared the stage with, but it doesn't feel like it's anything special now.
But she can't think about any of that now. She has to keep cool and composed, especially for opening night, and Suguru refuses to let Satoru get to her. She's spent a decade rebuilding everything she lost, and it won't slip out of her hands at the height of her fame just because Satoru wants to prove something.
So she throws herself into the song when Satoru rejoins her, bringing out more emotion than she intends. But it works for the music. Something proud and cruel in Suguru delights when she realizes that Satoru is mostly following her lead on the emotional aspect. She's never been jealous of Satoru's talent, because Satoru's always been as bright as the sun, as all encompassing as the heat of a summer day. It was stupid to be jealous of that, especially when Suguru was wrapped up in her, had her attention and knew the troubles behind that talent. Still, knowing there is something Satoru isn't quite unparalleled at and that Suguru succeeds in feels like an accomplishment.
"Later on...." Suguru flips her set list. "After Infinity. It's the brightest song, we need something to bring everyone back before I transition into Dreamer." She makes a little frown, thinking about that. "Maybe not. They're a little too close in theme to be distinct, and I want this song to stand out."