"Damn it, Adam, you think I want you to be that lonely man, waiting on me hand and foot? No. I fell in love with the guy that was smarter than everyone else, clever as fuck, independent, seen hell but still fucking good and ... real." There had been those flashes when they were young, of the man Adam could be, and not the servant, not the scared under footman that bowed his head.
Ronan shoved his hands into his pockets and stepped away from the bed, pacing again, "I am a goddamn prick. I should have asked. But fuck, Adam, would you really have told me?" Adam had always been difficult when it came to his secrets. Ronan loved that fierce independent streak but it could also be frustrating. "That's what you want—that's what I want too. I never wanted you to be my dog," he said, frustrated that Adam seemed to think that he relished the difference in their status, or something. "Then let's fucking go to the country estate and have all of that, holy shit. Let me give you a goddamn quiet life where you can be happy and comfortable until we're ancient. It doesn't even have to be the damn estate, it can be anywhere. We can go anywhere."
Stopping his pacing, he looked back at Adam, "Unless you don't want to. Unless you wanna get the fuck away from me after everything. I'll give you the reference if that's what you want."
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"Damn it, Adam, you think I want you to be that lonely man, waiting on me hand and foot? No. I fell in love with the guy that was smarter than everyone else, clever as fuck, independent, seen hell but still fucking good and ... real." There had been those flashes when they were young, of the man Adam could be, and not the servant, not the scared under footman that bowed his head.
Ronan shoved his hands into his pockets and stepped away from the bed, pacing again, "I am a goddamn prick. I should have asked. But fuck, Adam, would you really have told me?" Adam had always been difficult when it came to his secrets. Ronan loved that fierce independent streak but it could also be frustrating. "That's what you want—that's what I want too. I never wanted you to be my dog," he said, frustrated that Adam seemed to think that he relished the difference in their status, or something. "Then let's fucking go to the country estate and have all of that, holy shit. Let me give you a goddamn quiet life where you can be happy and comfortable until we're ancient. It doesn't even have to be the damn estate, it can be anywhere. We can go anywhere."
Stopping his pacing, he looked back at Adam, "Unless you don't want to. Unless you wanna get the fuck away from me after everything. I'll give you the reference if that's what you want."