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My Boyfriend (Who Lives in Canada)

Satoru loved his friends. He loved college, the freedom and connection of it, the knowledge and collaboration. He loved sitting around a lunch table with his friends, chattering on about nonsense and teasing each other.

And he was a little bit in love with his roommate, Suguru, who was seated beside him at the table. The six of them were crammed in to a booth that was only designed for four, so Satoru was basically mashed up against Suguru's side, their thighs sealed together and their shoulders brushing every time one of them moved. It felt electric, and Satoru was trying to ignore the little zings of desire that shot through him every time Suguru moved, or how his arm stretched out along the back of the booth, so close to being draped over Satoru's shoulders.

At the moment, Satoru was regaling them all with the story of some girl who had asked him out, and he hadn't realized that she was asking him out until the fourth(?) attempt when she'd finally gotten exasperated and just demanded are you gay or something?

"What'd you say?" Shoko asked, idly curious but not super invested, spinning her spoon against the bottom of her empty bowl.

"Oh. Just, like, no, I'm just not interested."

"Yeah, same as you've said every time someone has asked you out," Utahime contributed, with a little snort. "More likely you're just ace."

Silence descended around the table, somewhere between shocked and awkward. Satoru stared at her, lips parted, and for a moment he genuinely considered it. Am I asexual?

But then Suguru shifted very slightly, either out of awkwardness or intent to say something, and his arm brushed against the back of Satoru's neck. The bolt of lust that went through him shot straight to his cock. Right. Not asexual.

"I'm not," Satoru insisted, the words spilling indignantly from his mouth before he could think about them. "I have a boyfriend."

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"Again, not exactly dissuading me from flirting," Satoru keeps teasing, grinning at him.

For now, though, he trails a fingertip over Suguru's chest, tracing the lines and planes of his musculature. Thoughtful and processing through the events of the past hour. He watches his finger's path, admiring Suguru's physique, then pauses, eyes flicking back up to Suguru's face. "Were you serious about the collar? Or was that just sex talk?"

The question isn't completely out of the blue, considering that Suguru had brought it up during sex. But it takes him a moment to process, thinking back to what he'd said. It had been words bandied about in the heat of the moment, a possessive streak sparked by seeing someone attempt to flirt with Satoru, and Satoru responding.

His gaze drops to Satoru's neck, fresh marks in the shape of Suguru's hand and mouth already blooming across the pale skin. They're visible marks that Satoru belongs to someone, although they'll fade with time.

Was he serious about the collar? He wasn't not serious about it....

"Do you want one?" he asks instead of directly answering.

"I..." Satoru hesitates at having the question turned back on him, looking a little lost. He searches Suguru's face, having hoped to get a better handle on the topic based off of how Suguru answered. Now he's uncertain again, because he doesn't know what it means or what he's signing up for.

"I don't know, Suguru." Satoru's voice is soft, and he nestles close again, nuzzling at Suguru's shoulder and feeling strangely insecure about his ignorance. "I don't know anything about that kinda stuff. I kinda like the idea, but if it means something in particular you're gonna have to tell me."

"I don't know much about it either." Which feels awkward and weird to admit, especially considering that he has the most experience between them. But very few of his encounters leaned into anything heavy; he hadn't thought about possessing someone in the past, certainly not the way he wanted to possess Satoru. "I've seen people wearing them before at clubs I've been to— not sex clubs, just bars and such— and I know it wasn't just for aesthetics. It was more for kink things."

Beyond that, he's at a loss. He knows it's deeper than some kink thing, but he hadn't ever thought to ask or look it up.

He wouldn't even know where to get one. A pet store? There are clothing stores that cater to the alternative crowds, but a spiky collar doesn't seem appropriate.

But he would like to see Satoru with a mark, something that notes him as taken and belonging to Suguru. A wedding ring, but not— not somehing they would have to explain to their families or anything. That feels selfish; his stomach clenches at the thought. Satoru isn't someone he can just possess and own, like a pet.

He exhales slowly, mind still racing.

"Maybe we should look into it. It can be something we just do during sex."

"Let's look into it," Satoru agrees, appeased by this solution. His head lifts again and he offers his boyfriend a smile. "I'd like that. And if we look into it and we don't like what other people are doing, we can figure out our own thing, whatever's right for us." He cups a hand against Suguru's cheek, admiring him for a moment before giving him a warm kiss.

He doesn't linger in the kiss, pulling back to study Suguru's eyes again. "You know I'm yours, right? No one else could ever compare. Especially not that loser. I don't want anyone else touching me. I want to be only yours, only ever yours." His brow furrows a little with worry. As much as he enjoyed the possessive sex, he's a still concerned that Suguru might actually be upset. "Do you trust me?"

Suguru slips an arm around him and pulls Satoru closer, snuggling in as much as he can, given their positions. His hand splays across the small of Satoru's back. "And if you like it, we can look into getting you a collar."

He leans into the kiss, a little surprised when Satoru pulls away so quickly, having expected the kiss to be much longer. He's about to ask why he stopped when Satoru speaks up. His words are a relief, although Suguru still feels something complicated he can't name.

"Of course, I trust you." That was never in question. "And I didn't think you wanted him to touch you, although I was shocked when you started flirting back." He runs his thumb in a small circle on Satoru's back. "You hadn't shown interest in anyone before we got together, and I'm sure that's still true."

“I’m not interested in anyone but you,” Satoru agrees insistently. He fidgets, embarrassed and a little uncertain of his own motivations. “I… Suguru… I’ve never gotten to flirt with anyone before. I always hated the idea of anyone thinking they had a chance and then bothering me and I’d have to get rid of them and it would be all awkward. It made me squirm. I just wanted people to stay away.”

Biting his lip, Satoru looks away, worried again that Suguru was going to be displeased with him for his misbehavior. He never cared what anyone else thought about him, never wanted anyone else's approval, but he intensely wanted Suguru to be proud of him and pleased with him. “But in this case I knew it wouldn’t go anywhere. I was safe with you. If he thought he had a chance he’d learn the truth quickly enough. I could… just enjoy the attention, smug in the knowledge that I belonged to you. I like the idea of other people being jealous of us. Lots of people want you, but you’re mine. And lots of people want me, but they can't have me. I belong to you."

His arms tighten around Suguru's shoulders, clingy and possessive.

The insistence that they belong to each other that carries in Satoru, not just in his words but in his tone and demeanor, relaxes Suguru a little. Enough that he can push aside the uncomfortable thoughts about claiming, and focus instead on his boyfriend.

"So you can flirt with people when you're attached to someone because you can get rid of them easier?" he asks, his tone teasing. His arm tightens around Satoru, thumb still drawing lazy circles on his back. "You can flirt because you don't care about it, and they're just a pesky inconvenience you'll get rid of soon enough."

Which makes sense, if Suguru thinks about it. Especially the flirting. If he'd never done any flirting, especially to avoid awkwardness, and now he could, it wasn't unlike Satoru to test everything.

"I'm not mad at you for flirting. It was shocking, I'll admit, but even from a distance, you didn't seem serious about it." He hadn't heard most of the conversation, just a little at the end. And Satoru had dodged the touch quickly, which told Suguru enough about the encounter. "Trying to make everyone else jealous?"

Satoru both brightens and relaxes when Suguru understands. He grins, nodding, and presses a kiss to the tip of Suguru's nose. "We make everyone else jealous just by existing. Doubly so--more than doubly so--when we're together. But yeah, it's like picking a fight. I would have enjoyed it if he had tried to turn it into a fight, once he realized I'd only been toying with him."

Satoru's always enjoyed mocking and needling at people, and he's thrilled when it does turn into a fight, because he always wins fights easily and embarrasses his opponents. He doesn't end up in a lot of physical interactions, since most people don't try to make altercations out of Satoru's offenses, but he just treats it as a game either way.

Happy and infatuated, Satoru grins as he studies his boyfriend's face, just enjoying the embrace for another minute. He'll want to wash up soon, but he's not yet ready to let go after all the emotions they've gone through over the past hour.

"Of course we do." Suguru had no doubt about that. They were both attractive people, smart and skilled, so there was bound to be jealousy. He could understand why Satoru would take everything the way he did— leaning into flirting to make the guy jealous, shrugging off the encounter moments later when the guy ended up sulking about it.

"Aren't you in a class with him? Won't that make everything awkward?" Suguru asks, brow furrowing for a moment. He doesn't know how big the science classes get, if they would even see each other in the classroom, or if it wouldn't be a problem. He hopes the guy remembers this and doesn't try to flirt again, although he wouldn't put it past anyone.

"Nah, I was just gonna play it off, act dumb. I wasn't leading him on or saying anything untrue, I was just failing to be clear. He was trying to invite me to some frat party and I was like nah I'm pretty sure I'm busy. I just didn't specify that my plans were to get railed by my hot boyfriend. If he tries to flirt again or gets snippy with me I can just act oblivious, like I thought he was just being friendly? And duh I already have the best boyfriend? No one else could compare." Satoru shrugs, deeply unconcerned about it all. "Mkay let's clean up and then research collars. I'm curious."

He pecks Suguru's lips, then kisses him again because he can't resist, laughing happily as he steals a third kiss for luck.

"You're an asshole," Suguru comments, his tone amused and vaguely proud. He likes the asshole parts of Satoru just as much as he likes the nerdy bits and the arrogant side. He just likes Satoru.

He pulls Satoru back for a fourth kiss, but four is an unlucky number, so he doesn't let go just yet, kissing him again. Only then does he let go and sit up so they can clean up. They've gotten good at that process, at least, although Suguru takes the opportunity to strip the bed and change the sheets.

"We should get a sex blanket," he comments to Satoru, as he smooths out the duvet on the bed. "Make clean up easier."

But it's an idle thought, something to figure out later, after they've researched the more important things like collars.

"What is a sex blanket, is it just an ordinary blanket that we have sex on or is it some kind of special hydrophobic material? Will it be covered in cartoon penises? I assume it will be covered in cartoon penises." Satoru rises gingerly, cheeks flushing red at the slick, obscene sound of the semen escaping from his hole. He leaves Suguru to fuss with the bed and waddles carefully to the bathroom, thighs pressed together to at least try not to drip on the floor. Turning on the shower, he steps in and starts washing off, efficient about it today because he doesn't feel like taking a bath afterward, and he suspects they may end up with another round either before or after dinner.

"Cartoon— no! We are not teenage boys, Satoru," Suguru says, aghast and completely ignoring the fact that they are still teenage boys, "and we're not putting cartoon pensises on our bed when fucking. It's a blanket made from hydrophobic material."

He finishes making the bed while Satoru showers, and pops into the bathroom to do his own cleanup while Satoru showers. He's likewise not too particular about it this time, because he's sure they'll go again; it's still early, and they are going to look up something that's likely to titillate.

He pulls on his old underwear and has Satoru's laid out for him when he emerges.

"We literally are teenage boys," Satoru shouts back from the shower, though he at least doesn't intend to try to make the cartoon penises happen.

He rolls his eyes a bit at Suguru's insistence upon underwear, but he slips his on anyway. The silken boxer shorts that he wears are titillating enough, he figures, loose enough to be comfortable but still short shorts that show off the curve of his ass where it meets his upper thigh.

Grabbing both laptops, he settles on the bed, tucked comfortably against Suguru's side, and opens a private browsing window to start searching topics.

He dismisses pet play things without really thinking about it. That's something different. Everything else, aside from some counterculture fashion movements, seems to be BDSM stuff. It's all about dominants and submissives, so he starts reading about that, skimming through articles about roles and kinks. The idea of a collar as a claiming thing, belonging to someone--to Suguru--appeals to him, but the rest of him leaves him feeling lost. He shuts his laptop and pushes it away, curling tighter against Suguru's side and hugging his arms around his boyfriend's waist.

"Maybe we just gotta figure out our own thing. I'd obviously be a terrible submissive." Which he feels a little bit ... strangely insecure about.

He doesn't even consider the inverse. Obviously he's not going to be the dominant. That involves responsibility. Horrible.

Suguru's research takes him down a similar path, especially since they share links back and forth. Like Satoru, he dismisses the pet play stuff easily, although he does take a brief moment to picture Satoru with white cat ears and those obnoxious glasses, with a white collar and bell. Maybe a fluffy white tail—

He quickly brings himself back to reality; it's just a fantasy, nothing major, but it feels awkward to think about Satoru like that.

Most of the BDSM stuff is overwhelming. He can see why Satoru pushes aside his laptop and Suguru isn't long to follow that, setting aside his laptop and wrapping an arm around Satoru's shoulders.

"You would," he agrees, "although I think a lot of this submissive stuff sounds boring. A little mindless." Someone listening and obeying all the time, without any spark, doesn't seem all that fun. And some of the dominance aspects sound too intense for Suguru. He likes sex, he likes making sure his partner is enjoying themselves, he likes holding them down— holding Satoru down— but he doesn't want to punish Satoru, or have someone serve him, or use another person as furniture.

Satoru makes a sound of agreement, reassured that Suguru feels similarly about these things and that they're compatible in their preferences. "I think I still like the idea of the collar, though. I don't know. I like the thought of belonging to you. We wouldn't act any different, we'd still just be us. I'm not gonna be obedient and I definitely don't wanna be punished. But a collar that means I'm yours ... it sounds kinda sexy, doesn't it? I like ... the thought of you claiming me. You being possessive of me. Nobody else being allowed to touch me. That part's hot."

Turning his head, he nuzzles at Suguru's throat and then bites his shoulder with a pleased, slightly feral rumble.

The bite makes Suguru laugh, easily starting to arouse him, and he pulls Satoru closer.

"I like the idea of a collar too. Maybe something you don't need to wear all the time, since it probably won't go with anything you wear. But you can wear it here, and if we go out." Not that they had gone out often, other than to hang out with friends. But there had been the occasional party Suguru had gone to before he and Satoru got together, and there were bound to be more as they continued in college. "Or we can get you a necklace that means the same thing. It doesn't matter if anyone else knows what's going on, as long as we do. And we know you belong to me."

As he says that, Suguru tightens his grip on Satoru and flips them over so he's on top of his boyfriend, pressing him down into the mattress.

"Isn't that right, Satoru?"

"Why wouldn't it go with what I wear?" Satoru starts to argue. "Why wouldn't I get a collar that's coordinated with my wardrobe? Suguru, please." He's still grinning, though, and listens with interest to the suggestion of a necklace. It makes him think of a nice choker, or maybe something that more visibly looks like a chain--something that again has that implication of a collared pet.

Gasping as Suguru flips him over like that, Satoru shifts beneath him, simultaneously melting into Suguru's control and arching up beneath him, instantly turned on. "Yeah," he agrees, breathy, all other thoughts skittering away as his focus narrows to his boyfriend in this moment. "Fuck, you're hot like this," he murmurs, feeling almost dizzy with infatuation and awe as he stares up at Suguru.

"Would a choker go with nerdy casual?" Suguru retorts. "Even a nice chain would look odd against half your shirts. Would you only wear it to go out?" It occurs to Suguru that he hasn't seen Satoru in anything too formal or fancy, even when they've gone out for nicer evenings with their friends. Maybe they should go out to a club at some point.

But that thought fades in face of how Satoru arches up beneath him, looking incredibly seductive like that. Suguru's attention narrows to Satoru and little else, in awe at how gorgeous he is, and how unintentionally seductive he is, melting beneath Suguru, completely trusting.

"Am I?" Suguru asks, unconcerned with how hot he is in the moment because most of his mind is occupied by Satoru. He's hot enough for Satoru, and really that's what counts in this moment. "Do you like that, sweetheart?"

Suguru rocks his hips against Satoru's, his cock stirring beneath his underwear. He arranges them so he can drag his growing erection against Satoru's.

It seems to Satoru that he should be able to get multiple collars to match different styles, and that Suguru's just plain wrong to doubt his ability to look cute and coordinated even with the most eclectic styles, but he's happy to push that to the back of his mind with the resolution to shop for collars online later that evening.

"Yeah. I like you possessive like this. I like feeling like I'm yours." Satoru whines, rolling his hips up against Suguru's, eager for more contact and pleasure.

Suguru reaches for Satoru's hands, lifting them over his head and pressing them against the pillows. Satoru's wrists are slender enough and Suguru's hands are large enough that he can wrap one hand around Satoru's wrists and keep them there while he trails his lips over Satoru's neck— which is mottled with bruises already— and upper chest.

"You should always feel like you're mine," Suguru says. "Since you are."

Three weeks into their relationship and Suguru is already picturing forever.

He bites down as he thinks about it, leaving a bruise just below Satoru's collarbones. He lets go of his hands so he can shimmy down between Satoru's legs, running his tongue along Satoru's iliac crest and then down the faint treasure trail leading from his belly button to his cock.

"Only yours," Satoru agrees, with a sigh of gratitude and pleasure as Suguru's mouth travels over him.

He gives a tiny whine of disappointment as Suguru releases his hands, but it's hard to mind all that much as Suguru moves lower down his body, looking breathtaking between his legs with his tongue skimming out over Satoru's skin.

"Fuck," Satoru breathes, neck arching and eyes closing for a moment, cock twitching eagerly as Suguru teases the areas near it. "You're so hot I can't even cope with it."

"Yeah?" Suguru asks, teasingly. "You're going to have to cope with it forever." Suguru will make sure he stays hot for the rest of his life, if he has to, just to see Satoru flush and arch like this.

"You're beautiful," he continues, nosing along the line between Satoru's leg and his groin, and then dragging his lips up the shaft of Satoru's cock. "Everywhere. Especially here. And I'm the only one who is ever going to see it."

Which isn't exactly true— locker rooms are a thing— but he'll be the one to see it hard. As he talks, Suguru licks over the head of his cock, dragging the tip of his tongue along the slit.

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