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Alec Lightwood ([personal profile] angelic_archer) wrote in [community profile] marlowemuses2018-12-29 09:32 pm

Heavy is the Head that Wears the Crown

Alec had known that after the wedding disaster, he wouldn't be in his parents good graces. Robert had stuttered some attempts at either trying to be supportive or questions about how Alec had suddenly become gay. Those encounters were awkward, but they were tolerable most of the time. He hated how relieved Robert seemed now that Magnus was gone. He probably thought without the 'corrupting influence' of Magnus, Alec would become the good son again.

Maryse was more difficult to deal with. There was no attempts at understanding. She was furious at him for humiliating the family in front of the most important Shadowhunters. The ones that she was trying to manipulate for favors. As usual, her anger spilled out in harsh critiques of her older children. Whenever he could, Alec took the worst of it to save Izzy. This time the lecture covered a wide range of subjects.
His inability to control his siblings or Clary. The wedding. Magnus. He took it all silently, letting her question all of his decisions, his talents, his ability to lead. It was all things Alec had heard before but they still cut deeply.

Standing at parade rest, he silently waited for the lecture to end, clenching his jaw to keep himself from arguing with her or trying to defend himself. It wasn't until she mentioned being assigned to Adam that he finally spoke. "The Clave thinks that I'm capable of protecting him and so does he."

"What does a Mundane know?" she snapped. "You couldn't even keep the Fairchild girl safe. You did your best and it almost got her killed, Alexander. Do you believe we should take that risk with someone who can restore the Institute to its proper glory?" He continued arguing, but he knew it was a losing battle. Mayrse was planning on having him replaced. Probably with Jace and there was nothing he could say to prevent her from going to the Clave to request someone else be Adam's bodyguard.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-14 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
"I want our first kiss to be private," Adam said, smiling and ducking his head with shy pleasure at the kiss to his jaw. "After that, I'm pretty sure I'll be okay with being kissed anywhere that you feel comfortable kissing me."

He took Alec's hand again, winding their fingers together and gliding his thumb along Alec's like an affectionate version of a thumb war. "I've never danced at all. I don't mind if you lead. I think that would go off better if we try any fancy lifts or dips." His grin turned a little bit playful at that, teasing, but also genuinely tempted by the idea of being dipped by Alec.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-15 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
"I'll be careful not to initiate anything at the institute unless we're in private," Adam promised, smiling as they played with each other's hands. It felt so freeing to have someone who liked his company and who wanted to exchange touch with him. "Can we kiss tonight, when we get back? Is that too early?"

Adam swallowed nervously after he'd asked it. He'd dated Blue for much longer than he'd known Alec, but with her it had always been too soon to kiss or to do anything else together. Adam felt guilty just asking for a kiss.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-15 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
"It doesn't have to be a for-sure plan," Adam said, a little disappointed by the way Alec dodged the request. "But I think we need to be better communicating our desires and expectations. I wanted to kiss you last night, you thought I wanted more, and it all went awry. I don't want to go back to your room thinking it might be okay to try for a kiss if you think we should wait until after we've had a formal date."

He increasingly wanted to kiss Alec here and now, to take the impulse before he started overthinking everything and building up expectations around it. The combination of nerves and desire was more than he knew what to deal with, so he just looked at Alec's hand instead, playing nervously with his fingers.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-15 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
Adam was quiet for a moment, trying to figure out how to explain when he didn't think they were actually disagreeing. He didn't know how to express the way he'd been hurt by what had happened with Blue, and what he wanted to avoid by simply agreeing when and where they would both be okay with kissing.

He wasn't sure if he'd always want to be kissed, or under what circumstances, or how to communicate that.

Alec's desire to kiss him now, however, made him smile, and gave him an idea to give Alec what he'd just said he wanted--the ability to kiss Adam when he wanted to, and he wanted to now.

"Come on," he said, getting up and taking Alec's hand. He took a moment to consider his route, and then led Alec to the nearby theater building and up two and a half flights into a quiet, out-of-the-way little reception room that was awkwardly designed, with windows set too high to see out of and uncomfortable decorative benches along one wall. The combination meant that it was hardly ever used, because it served no practical function.

Stopping to one side of the room, just out of sight from the little window set into the door, Adam turned and stepped close to Alec, blushing shyly. "How's this?"
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-16 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
Adam made a soft, pleased sound of surprise when Alec kissed him. Part of him hadn't quite expected it to happen, despite Alec saying that he wanted it to happen and despite Adam making the opportunity. It was almost sudden, the way that Alec just leaned in and kissed him. Between one breath and another, Adam had his first kiss.

He leaned into it, soft and tentative as he returned the kiss. His hands slid up Alec's chest and curled around either side of his neck to hold him close, thumbs tucked just underneath Alec's jaw. As soon as the kiss broke, Adam started a new one, heart fluttering in his chest as he kissed Alec again and again.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-18 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
Adam noticed quickly that while his hands were on Alec and that seemed to be appreciated, and while the kiss was mutual, Alec was still careful not to touch.

Pulling back a little, Adam withdrew his hands, doubting himself and what was okay between them. He didn't go far, still wanting to lean into another kiss, but he wanted to make sure he wasn't missing something.

"It's okay to touch me," Adam said, hoping it was only the permission that Alec lacked, and not the desire. He swallowed, trying not to let his nerves overwhelm him.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-19 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
Adam leaned into the touch on his jaw, eyes falling half-shut with pleasure. No one had ever touched him like that, with soft affection, and he relished it, feeling his nerves settle. "Distracted how?" he asked.

Turning his head, Adam pressed a soft kiss to Alec's palm, eyes closing fully as he did so. His hands settled on Alec's chest again, reassured that it was okay to touch.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-20 02:22 am (UTC)(link)

“No one’s ever called me hot before,” Adam said, blushing and grinning. For once, he didn’t doubt the idea. He trusted Alec enough to believe that he meant it. And maybe, if Alec believed it, it was true. Or at least true for Alec, and having one person in the world who found him hot was enough to make Adam happy.

“Will you,” he murmured, ducking his head. He slid his hands up a little higher, curling his fingertips over Alec’s shoulders, and let his head fall forward to rest his forehead against Alec’s chest. “Just hold me for a minute,” he finished, almost inaudible.

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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-20 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
Adam felt warm and safe as Alec's arms went around him, but at the same time his heart started thudding, filling with an aching vulnerability that made Adam feel desperate for more contact and yet terrified of being shoved away. The flood of emotions was more than he knew how to deal with--satisfaction, affection, joy, fear, nerves, arousal, insecurity--combined with the confusing physical and mental relaxation at being held.

Little tremors went through him, overwhelmed by sorrow and longing, and he slid his arms further up, hugging them around Alec's neck and clinging to him for a minute, soaking in the human contact.

Blue had touched him, held his hand, hugged him, even cuddled a bit, but it hadn't been like this. There had always been an impatience and a discomfort to their touches, one of them always fidgety or insecure, never quite fitting together.

Alec holding him felt like submerging into an ocean, and Adam didn't know if he'd ever be able to surface again, or if he ever wanted to.

All at once it became too much, and Adam pulled back suddenly, face red and heart pounding.

His skin felt electric with stimulation, and he felt dizzy. He wanted desperately to cling to Alec again, but he also needed a respite to deal with everything that he felt.

"Sorry," he stammered, rubbing at his hair and feeling irreparably broken. But he didn't want his damage to hurt Alec, which meant he had to offer some kind of explanation. "I'm not used to being touched gently," he said at last, accent thick as molasses. Head down and too shy to look at Alec in anything more than glances, Adam stuck out his hand tentatively, since he was pretty sure he could endure holding hands.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-21 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
"I want you," Adam confirmed, accent still thick, but no longer so thick that he was choking on it.

He kept hold of Alec's hand, but his head stayed down and his eyes stayed averted. His breath hitched twice, unsteady, and then he regained control of himself and shuttered the vulnerability behind his usual facade of practicality.

Tugging lightly at Alec's hand, Adam led him back out of the room and down the stairs. "We should get to class." His accent lingered on, brought to the forefront by Adam's vulnerability and defensiveness.

As they emerged from the building, Adam paused on the front steps and turned to Alec, leaning in to give him a quick kiss on the lips in full view of the entire university.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-21 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
"I just didn't want our first kiss to be in public," Adam said, smiling at the sight of Alec's grin. He liked it a lot that his kisses were worth that. It made him feel light and whole to know that he could make Alec happy, and that he could kiss him anytime he wanted. "I'll be careful when we're at the Institute. The rest of the time, I want everyone to know you're my boyfriend."

He stayed close to Alec, watching his eyes with a trusting smile. He didn't touch aside from keeping their hands clasped, but he didn't want to move out of Alec's space, either.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-21 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Adam grinned wider at that, curling his hands around Alec's neck and kissing him again, warm and affectionate. He'd expected months to go by before Alec determined that they could be a couple in the eyes of the Institute. A week or two was completely manageable.

The confirmation that they were boyfriends made his heart thrill, and it was difficult to resist kissing Alec again. But he'd missed one class for the day, and wasn't willing to miss more. "Come on," he said, tugging at Alec's hand. The sooner they got to his next class, the sooner it would be over and they could head back to Alec's room to make out.
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[personal profile] hondoyota 2019-01-21 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
They stopped holding hands as they neared the Institute, and Adam's hand felt cold the rest of the way. He tried not to look at Alec, worried that the longing or joy would show on his face at the sight of his boyfriend.

He couldn't help smiling when Alec asked him a question and he looked up into Alec's handsome face. "Probably. Wouldn't mind company, though."

Glancing past Alec down the hall, Adam retreated into his room, staying close to Alec and waiting only just until the door closed before grabbing the front of Alec's shirt and kissing him.

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