marlowemuses | The lonely become either thoughtful or empty

Adam was glad that though the guardian was carrying weapons, they weren't being pointed at him with the same immediate threat as his last visit. Nevertheless, he watched the guardian and his cats warily for a moment to make sure that none of them were going to attack just yet.

"I wanted you to be willing to talk to me," Adam said, grateful that it seemed like he'd achieved that for the time being. "I don't know what this place is, but I thought that if you aren't able to come into my world, maybe you'd like a piece of it." It was the best thing Adam had been able to give, since he had so little to offer, but he was glad that it had earned him a few sentences of conversation without any weapons or threats.

"The flowers were from the ley line. I'm bound to it. I am its hands and eyes." Adam didn't specify that was exactly the sacrifice he had made, though it was true. He simply wanted to explain and clarify what he'd said before. He was here because of the ley line, though he still didn't know what his purpose was for being here.

Alec had liked having a piece of the mortal world, which was why this intruder was dangerous. He'd found a way to make Alec curious. It had made him speak instead of act. He was supposed to protect this place and he was having a conversation instead. Even knowing that he should kill or at least run off the intruder, he missed the sound of other voices too much to shove him out the gate immediately.

"This place is between worlds." As he spoke, Alec tried to understand why the Angel would have allowed someone to cross the boundary between the Mundane world to find the temple. He knew that ley lines were connected to the reality he protected, but when his duty had been explained to him, there had been no mention of someone being bound to that power.

He almost asked about the flowers, but he didn't want the being in front of him knowing that he'd ever been outside of the temple. That might give him ideas that more pieces of the mortal world might tempt Alec away from his duty. "Being bound to the line doesn't explain how you found your way here."

"I can sense the ley line no matter where I am. When I'm very near to it, I can see it." In a manner of speaking. Adam suspected that he felt it more than saw it, but that Cabeswater used its connection to his eyes to translate its own existence into something tangible to Adam. "Where the current runs strongest, it appears to me almost like a golden glow. And at the very heart of that current, within days of my sacrifice to the ley line, I began to see this gate. It looks different on the other side, more golden. The same gate lit by the ley line's glow."

It was rare for Adam to be this forthright or detailed about anything. He wasn't sure if anyone--Gansey included--had ever gotten so much information out of him. But in this case, he was certain that the more clear information he could offer, the better he could prove that he belonged here. Wherever here was.

"No matter where I am on the line geographically," Adam drew a line between them on the ground, then arched his thumb and index finger over the imaginary line to indicate the gate. "The gate appears, parallel with the ley line, and centered on wherever I am." He put his other index finger nearby to indicate himself, and then moved both parallel along the track of the imaginary line. "Invitations don't get much clearer than that."

Adam put his hands back into his lap and looked up to see if the guardian could offer elaboration on any of this.

The line had shown the intruder where the temple was. Why would that be allowed? After centuries of guarding this place, why would someone find the temple? Alec wished he knew if what the intruder said was true, but he couldn't see the ley line. He could only see the gates and nothing beyond them. He hadn't been given that gift or curse when he'd been placed at the temple. "All I see past the gates is night." And stars. At least he'd had the stars to look at instead of unending black that would have driven him mad.

Cautiously moving forward, Alec looked at the drawing, scowling as he tried to understand what was happening. Only one living being was supposed to be able to find the gate and she had never visited. "Whether the line invited you or not, you're not the one that's supposed to be here." He wasn't sure what had allowed this being to find the gate instead of the priestess, but the Angel had never said that strange young men would show up.

"Maybe the sacrifice went wrong," he muttered to himself. Persephone brushed against his leg, ears perked up with interest. The intruder wasn't planning on trying to kill him. Unless he was lying, he seemed just as confused by why he was at the temple as Alec was.

Focusing on the intruder again, he tried to find the simplest solution for why the wrong being was here when it was obvious his intruder wasn't planning on attempting to kill him. "You're not the one I've been waiting for. Was there a girl with you? He said a girl would find this place."

Adam's brow furrowed and his cheeks flushed. It surprised him how stung he was by the implication that it wasn't supposed to be him here, bound to the ley line. As if it weren't enough that the ley line had made him increasingly inhuman and unknowable, even the wonders associated with the ley line still found Adam inadequate.

"What do you mean, the sacrifice went wrong?" Adam snapped, a little too loud. "What was supposed to happen?"

A girl. Unless he meant Neeve, which seemed unlikely, he must mean Blue. Finally Adam had something wondrous that belonged to him alone, and as soon as he was through the door the guardian rejected him and asked him to send in his ex-girlfriend.

When the intruder raised his voice, Alec's fingers flexed and a dagger appeared in his hand. The cats stopped their curious weaving, crouching down in case the being attempted to attack. Alec wasn't sure what the creatures would do, but he was certain that they were just as deadly as he could be.

He didn't move, keeping his posture relaxed despite being ready for an attempted attack. Perhaps he'd been wrong about the being not wanting to invade the temple. Maybe the music box had been meant to lull him into inattention. He carefully ignored that minor hurt. He should have known that no one would give him a gift because of kindness. He should have known there'd be a cost for the happiness it had given him. "When I arrived here, I was told a priestess would share my work. No one else was supposed to be able to find this place. It is my duty to protect it from everyone except the chosen priestess."

Adam's defensive anger dropped suddenly at the mention of a priestess, and the surprise showed clear on his face as his blush deepened.

Just a few days ago, Persephone had equated his role to that of a priestess, and said that in ancient times priestesses would tend the line the way Adam was doing now. Having the guardian demand a priestess was too much of a coincidence.

And yet the implication was that he wanted Persephone here, not Adam. A priestess, not a magician.

Looking down at his hands, Adam considered the possibilities, and his own certainty that he was supposed to be here. He had to admit that it was likely that he was only feeling how much he wanted to belong here, and that if a priestess was needed, it should probably be Persephone.

"I have a mentor," he admitted, numbly. "She referred to our role as that of priestesses. She can't see the gateway, but I can try to bring her through."

For a long moment, Alec was silent, watching the being in front of him. His reactions were wrong for someone who was trying to insinuate himself into the temple. He was blushing when he should be indignant. He should be trying to argue his way into Alec's confidence, not offering an explanation of who might be the priestess.

Persephone bumped against his shin, reminding him that he needed to speak. "Your mentor referred to you both as the priestesses?" he asked slowly, trying to compare that information with what the Angel had said. "If she can't see the gate, then she isn't the priestess." Which meant that this being could be the person that was meant to find the temple despite not fitting the mental image that the Angel's words had given him.

"Why did you make a sacrifice to the ley line?" he blurted out, not sure why he'd asked but he had the feeling the answer might be important.

"My friend is seeking King Glendower," Adam said, careful and wary. He didn't like giving this much information, but it seemed reasonably certain that the boy in front of him was a guardian, not an antagonist. "We had hoped that waking the ley line would help lead the way to him, but there were others trying to wake the ley line for their own power. One of those others murdered a friend of mine, and came very close to killing all of us. We had been told that the ley line would wake, and there wasn't much time."

Adam kept his eyes down, shoulders hunched defensively, still aching with the rejection of not being wanted here. "I sacrificed myself to live for the ley line so that no one else would die for it."

"This place has nothing to do with a king." The name wasn't familiar. If Alec wanted, he could find information on him later, but that search had nothing to do with the temple. Which made it strange that this being had arrived here.

"If your friends do find a way here..." He left the rest unfinished, his tone soft despite the implied threat. "I guard this place and from the sound of it, those others should never be allowed in this place." Alec still wasn't certain about this stranger, but at least he wasn't willing to kill to wake the ley line.

"If you offered your life, then you understand what these places want as sacrifices." Alec had done something similar for his siblings. That probably made him less cautious than he should be, but he wasn't sure why one person who had made the kind of sacrifice would be able to see the gate and not the others unless they were meant to find the way to the temple. "I was told that a priestess would find the temple, but maybe that was too literal. The world's changed, hasn't it? Roles aren't so easily defined now?"

"The world's always changing," Adam pointed out. He wasn't surprised that Glendower wasn't here, though it was only once he realized it that it seemed obvious that he should have hoped for or expected Glendower to be here. And yet he'd never mentioned the gate to Gansey or any of his friends. Glendower belonged to Gansey, but this place belonged to Adam.

He didn't like the implied threat against his friends, and lifted his head to give the guardian a defensive glare, even as the guardian softened and seemed to be accepting him here. "I told no one else about the gate. The ley line brought me here. What does it mean, being your priestess?"

"This part of it rarely does." If it was even part of the world now. Alec felt so isolated from mortals that he wasn't sure if he really had any connection to that part of the universe anymore. No one was left who remembered him. If there were stories about his choice, it was myth by now, thought to be fiction without any hint of truth. "You're the first change this place has seen in centuries."

He managed a weak smile when the being said that no one else knew about the gate. "Good. I don't want to hurt anyone, but the rules of this place are strict." Alec almost told the being the reason but until he was certain that he really trust him, he still had to be careful.

"I don't really know what the priestess is supposed to do. I was just told she - " He should probably quit saying she. "Uh... The priestess would eventually find a way here. What did your mentor say you were supposed to do?"

"I maintain and restore the ley line," Adam explained. He got carefully to his feet, figuring that maybe he was allowed to stand up now that the guardian was willing to consider his qualifications. "My name is Adam Parrish."

He took a step forward, but no further. Whatever this place was, he belonged here. They were tentatively agreed on that now.

"It's your turn. Who are you, and what is your role?"

"There's something wrong with the ley line?" Alec hadn't noticed anything wrong with his domain. The edges of it seemed just as solid as it had been when he'd been brought to the temple. There'd been no strange occurrences except the stranger suddenly appearing at the gate. As the being - Adam - stood, Alec dismissed the dagger in his hand. The weapon faded away, ready to appear again if he needed it.

"I'm Alec." It seemed strange to say his name aloud. He sometimes spoke to the cats, introducing himself when a new one appeared, but that was the only time his name mattered. "I guard the Temple." And its contents but that wasn't something he would admit during their first conversation.

Even if his cats seemed to be warming up to the stranger. Arching an eyebrow at his favorite, he sighed as she began inspecting Adam's shoe. "Persephone, be nice." She probably would be or she could claw him. Alec wasn't sure how any of his pets would react to having someone new in their territory. "They're not used to peopel either."

"My mentor's name is Persephone, too." Adam bent a knee and offered her his knuckles to sniff. "I would not be surprised if you were the same person. Did you make sure to tell me the term you knew he needed to hear?" he asked the cat. This Persephone was dark where his Persephone was pale-haired, but he still half expected the cat to transform into his friend.

"I don't think there have been any priestesses in centuries. No one at all tending the ley line. It's weakened and gone feral, like an overgrown garden or a polluted river."

Curious about his host and their exchange of information, Adam looked up at Alec, studying him. "This is a temple? And there's an ... angel?"

"Persephone seemed appropriate considering - " He gestured vaguely, not sure if Adam would understand. Even when he was part of the mortal world, his family and friends had considered his thoughts strange. Persephone seemed to think Adam was acceptable and bumped her head against his hand. "She does disappear occasionally, but I never thought she might have a connection to the mortal world except maybe to chase mice." He wasn't quite sure if she could be a person and a cat since she'd been with him for a long time, but it could be possible.

"I've never met a priestess. I was just told that one would find the temple." After waiting for so many centuries, Alec had assumed that the temple had been forgotten. "I don't have the ability to tend the line or to even see it. I can't see beyond the gate." That wouldn't be dangerous to admit. He still had ways of observing the mortal world so it wouldn't give others an advantage.

One of the other cats rubbed against his leg and Alec absentmindedly picked her up. Emily curled up against his chest and started to purr. "There was an Angel. He chose me to stay here. He's the one who told me that eventually the priestess would find a way here. It's a temple, but it's grown bigger over the centuries. There's gardens too, but I think those are for me not the temple."

"You can't leave here?" Adam asked. Persephone nuzzled at his hand, so he patted and scritched at her accordingly, learning how to pet a cat relative to how she responded. He wasn't very familiar with interacting with animals, never having had any of his own, but he liked befriending the cat. "You're alone here? For how long?"

It seemed strange to him knowing that this guardian was meant to keep solitary watch over the gate. Adam still didn't know why. It seemed to him that the powerful and dangerous parts of the ley line were on the other side of the gate.

Standing again and leaving Persephone, Adam moved a little closer to Alec, amused by the happy kitten against his chest. "So I'm your priestess, but neither of us knows what that means?"

"No, I can't." He tried not to think about it. Usually he didn't. There were enough distractions to keep Alec busy most of the time. Thousands of books. Glimpses of the mortal world. The gardens and the cats... it was lonely but he'd learned how to live with the solitude.

Watching Persephone teach Adam the spots that she preferred to have petted, he decided that he could trust the new priestess with some of the story of the temple. He'd omit the details related to the Cup and Sword until he was sure that he was meant to allow the priestess access to those relics. "How long? Do you mean how long I've been here or how long I must stay here?" Alec didn't really want to answer either question, but he would if it would help Adam understand the temple and Alec's connection to it.

When Adam stepped closer, Alec automatically took a step back, slightly disorientated by having someone who was bigger than a cat near him. Giving himself a mental shake, he forced himself to remain in one place, focusing on the feeling of Emily's fur against his fingers as he tried to get used to Adam's presence. "There might be an answer somewhere in the temple, but I don't have one. Or I forgot it. Sometimes... things blur together and it takes time to focus on them again."

"Okay," Adam said. It seemed achingly lonely that Alec had been here so long that time and reality blurred for him, and that seemed concerning. Adam looked around, wanting some clue or obvious path but seeing nothing.

"I can't stay for more than a couple hours," he said, since he was still tied to the passage of time and his mortal responsibilities and he figured Alec should be made aware of things like that. "I have work tonight."

Alec didn't seem to know where they were supposed to begin, and Adam didn't want to invite himself into parts of the temple that Alec wasn't ready to offer, so he just hunched his shoulders defensively, stuffed his hands into his pockets, and eyed Alec to see what Alec thought should be done next.

"A few hours is more than I expected." Alec hadn't really thought that Adam would want to stay. He might be the priestess, but if someone could leave, why wouldn't they? The priestess wasn't tied to the temple the way Alec was. "I -" He wanted to say that he appreciated the company but he didn't know how to say it without sounding like he resented his duty. He didn't. He'd made his choice but it was lonely.

"Why do you have to work? If you're the priestess you should be given tributes for your service." That was how it had worked in the past. Those who tended the temples were given the resources they would need or there were tithes to help the priestess maintain the sacred places.

Noticing how uncomfortable Adam seemed, Alec forced a smile as he gestured toward the gate, causing Emily to grumble. "You can go, if you want. I don't mind if you don't want to stay." He would mind, but not because of duty. It would be for selfish reasons. No matter how much the idea of company appealed to him, he wouldn't demand that Adam stayed. "You might be bound to the ley line but this isn't a duty that you chose."

"Changing times," Adam answered. "No tributes. No one but you--and my mentor--recognizes me as a priestess. If I were to advertise my connection with the ley line, I'd make myself a target for people who want to manipulate it and me."

He was a little puzzled by how lightly Alec seemed to dismiss him, after all the effort Adam had gone to in order to get here and get Alec to talk to him. "I want to stay. I don't know anything about my 'duty' here. If you have information about my role, I'd be grateful for it."

"The Angel must have recognized you, even if I'd been given the impression that a woman would find the way here." Or Alec had made that assumption since there weren't male priestesses when he was brought to the temples. There were specific roles that couldn't be changed. Silent Brothers were always male and still were. Iron Sisters were always female. "Most beings probably wouldn't believe you if you did say you were connected to the ley line."

Alec tried not to be too hopeful about Adam staying. He didn't know how lonely it was or how spooky the temple and gardens could be. Emily began to squirm and set her down with the other cats. "We could try to figure out your duties. There's information here, but it might be difficult to find. If you aren't supposed to know certain things, the temple will keep you from reading it."

Adam kept his own opinions regarding the danger of being connected to the ley line. One of his friends had already been murdered over it, as he'd said, so he felt skeptical about trusting to the safety of Alec's suggestion that most people wouldn't believe his connection to the ley line. Those who did would surely be trebly dangerous.

"If it wants me to cooperate with whatever these duties might be, then it should probably not keep me from reading that," Adam pointed out. He folded his arms over his chest, because he still didn't know where to go or what to do, and he hadn't exactly been invited to explore. When he'd advanced, Alec had responded defensively. Adam was stuck.

Alec arched an eyebrow at Adam's comment. The temple had always been welcoming to him, but there were areas that Alec knew he wasn't able to access. "The temple will decide what you should learn and when." Just as it had for Alec. He wasn't sure if Adam was patient enough to wait for the temple to release its secrets. Probably not. Adam was mortal and couldn't wait decades or centuries for the temple to decide when he was ready to learn its secrets.

His shoulders sagged briefly at the thought. Adam might be the priestess, but Alec knew he shouldn't get used to the idea of someone visiting him regularly. Even if he did, Adam wasn't like Alec. Eventually he'd be gone just like Izzy, Jace, and Max.

Shaking off the thought, he glanced down at the cats, surprised to find Persephone watching him. When she had his attention, she weaved between his legs then moved to Adam, butting her head against his shin. "Uh - Do you want me to show you around? That would be the right thing to do?" It'd been so long since he'd been around anyone other than the cats, he wasn't certain what was polite. The Priestess belonged to the temple just as much as Alec did. He could go wherever he wished whether Alec wanted him to or not. "Or if you don't want me to - Persephone likes you. She'd keep you company."

"That'd be the polite thing to do," Adam confirmed. He wasn't much for telling other people how they should act, but the temple guardian clearly was struggling to understand the problem. "I'd rather have the talking guide, though I don't mind if your friends come too. I need to know where to start looking for whatever duties I'm supposed to have."

Twice now Alec had implied that Adam might not want his company, which Adam didn't understand. Usually it was the other way around, people implying they didn't want Adam's company.

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